I had planned a very different post from what this is going to be. Really I had. Especially since it has been three whole weeks since my last post (holidays, littlest heathen's birthday, end-of-year in accounting, the excuses could go on). But after the morning I've had, I really need to vent.
I sat down earlier to write the post I wanted to write. Z wanted to ask me a question. Then M wanted to come in the room. Then the dogs wanted out. Before I could get logged in to write, the dogs wanted back in. Then the cat started letting me know that she wanted SOMETHING, but I never figured out what. Then M decided he was hungry. And, no, I'm not a single parent. There IS another adult in the house. But my children seem to think I'm the one to go to get anything, fix anything, ask anything, etc. Normally, this would be bragging rights as to how much my children love me. But not today. TODAY I WANT 5 MINUTES OF JUST ME!!!! Is that too much to ask? Okay, actually, I would like a couple of hours, but I will settle for 5 minutes.
I keep waiting for one of them to interrupt me again. But since I took the Nintendo DS away because Z wouldn't do as he was told, now he's cleaning his room before I take away the TV. Motivation. Yep. But that still leaves M, the dogs, the cat, and even the husband. What? Silence? Hmmmmmm, they must have figured out mom's not in the best of moods this morning. I wonder why! Actually, I started out in a good mood. I did.
I can tell already that this is one of the days that reinforce my need to be medicated. Legitimately. I forget exactly what the technical term is, but my doctor gave me a prescription that keeps me from completely losing my temper, or crying uncontrollably when my hormones hit, or deciding my husband really does need to sleep on the couch, or telling my boss exactly what he could do to help at year-end, or. . . well, you get the picture.
And for those of you that would look down your nose at me for being medicated, or whisper behind my back about my attitude toward my kids, well, I have another blog for you to read. Jill (otherwise known as Scary Mommy) says it better than I could in her post Mothering Children in the Digital Age . It doesn't just apply to the digital age. In fact, I think this digital age makes mothering a little easier -- we now have an outlet that our parents, grandparents, etc. didn't have.
Yes, today is a day I prove my medication works. Or one of them (take your pick of kids, pets, husband, or any other critter in the vicinity) would be duct-taped in a closet -- and, yes, that really does work. I know because I did it to my sister when we were kids to get some blessed peace and quiet.
But the timer just went off on the oven. The apple-cinnamon muffins (mix, not homemade *sigh* who has the time or energy?) are ready. So, I'm going feed the animals (including the kids), take my medication, get a cup of coffee and a muffin, then sit back, relax, enjoy my breakfast, and wait for the medication to kick in. I'm sure my kids are anxiously awaiting that kick-in, too.
I highly recommend it.
It seems everyone has a blog these days. Not that I'm giving in to the "norm." I just want to have a place that is mine. These are my thoughts, my opinions, my hopes, my dreams, my fears. I am a Daughter. I am a Wife. I am a Mother. But above all, I am a WOMAN.
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